I was so excited to finally be at a place where I could actually start acquiring customers in my business! I’d worked on it for several months and then stepped away for probably about 3 to 4 months due to personal discouragement (heavy sigh). But that’s a story for another blog. I was at the starting line and ready to pull the trigger. BANG! And, off I’d start running. I figured I would give it about 6 to 18 months to catch on and I could finally retire from Corporate America. That sounded pretty realistic in my mind for an online business.
We’ll I kind of didn’t check in with God to get his thoughts. When he spoke to me about MY timeline, this is what he said: “it’s not going to happen as quickly as you want it to happen.” So, the first time I heard it, I just thought: “Nah, surely God is NOT saying that.” “I mean, why would he say that?” “He knows how much I’m ready to retire.”
It seemed as if everything I read, everything I listened to, when I went to church the message was still the same. So, I decide I’d pray about it and perhaps God would say something different – change his mind (LOLOL). I prayed about it. The next time I went to church I heard the same message: “It’s not going to happen when you want it to.” Needless to say I was so disappointed. Even after that evening in church I continued to hear the SAME message. I suppose God wanted me to clear on what HIS plan was (LOLOL). After several weeks of hearing the same ole message. I finally accepted it. Oh, it was a bitter pill to swallow let me tell you! The next week at work I cried for two days at my desk.
Then God dropped this verse in my spirit, Isaiah 40:31:
But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.
I’d heard this verse a hundred times. But it had never had such an impact on me until now. I thought: “Lord, how is waiting going to help me?” “How is waiting going to renew my strength when it seems that my strength is decreasing everyday?”
Here are a few things I learned as I studied this verse on how waiting renews our strength:
- Those who wait means those who expect, look for and hope in the L We’re not just hopelessly or passively waiting. We’re waiting with active expectation that God will do what he has said he will do. We’re looking for him to show up in our lives not just to fulfill the promise, but in all areas of our lives to direct our steps.
- Hope means to have a feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen; a feeling of trust. Again, reiterating an active, unwavering expectation and trust.
- This verse uses Lord which means the self-existing or eternal one. This is majorly important. We’re not just putting our hopes in just any ole somebody. We’re putting our hopes in the self-existing God who created all things and is holding all things together (Colossians 1:16-17)! If God is holding the WORLD and multiple galaxies in place, surely he’s able to hold my life together! Surely I’m able to trust him at his word because he won’t fail me!
- Shall renew their strength – meaning they shall change and renew their strength and power. The prefix “re” means again. So, when I think about it I think “again new.” So this isn’t just a one-time renewal. This is every time I ask God for another dose of strength; he honors my request with “again new!” Can I just be real? Sometimes the fight is so fierce that everyday throughout the day I need “again new!”
Not only is my strength renewed, but it is also changed and I have power. Who wants to be living off of old strength that’s only been recycled and pieced together? No, no my strength is changed because I’ve learned something new about God and something new about myself. And, because of this changed strength I now know that I have the power to withstand and move forward! In Christ I’m stronger than I ever would be standing alone.
- They shall mount up on wings as eagles: as I mount up closer to the Father and he gives me “again new” strength, I’m able to walk and not be weary. I’m able to run and not faint. I’m able to keep pressing even though things aren’t how or where I want them to be. I’m able to keep going even though it looks like the odds are against me. I’m able to standfast when it doesn’t look like the promise is going to come to pass.
- Finally, what I took away from this passage is that God said wait. He didn’t say he wouldn’t bless my business. He just simply said that it wasn’t going to happen when I wanted it to happen. Wait means wait. It doesn’t mean NO.
I say to you that whatever you are expecting God to do in your life, wait doesn’t mean no. Have “again strength” and see what God will do.
Wait on God and Be Blessed!